Too tired to get out of bed, yet too wired to actually go back to sleep, I stare at the dark ceiling and count objects in my head to relax my anxieties. I float in an out of consciousness, and just as I think I'm about to fall asleep the alarm goes off. Time to wake up for the day.
Insomnia sucks.
My writing has taken a hit. I "wake up", take my son to school and write about an hour before my mind just gets so tired that I can't keep my eyes open. The throbbing headache won't let me look at a monitor for too long. The weather isn't helping - the rain and fog makes the screen seem brighter than normal no matter how many lights I turn on.
I might put on sunglasses, or I might go to sleep. Let's see how I feel after two cups of coffee. Black with sugar. The milk will only make me sleepier.
And, of course, some insomnia cartoons for your dark and rainy Wednesday morning in New Jersey.
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This post is part of the Insecure Writer's Support Group blog hop.
All insecure writers need support, and some sleep!
Tanya, I have insomnia sometimes. Love the third comic hahaha.
ReplyDeleteOh man... I'm brave as hell at 2am as I clarify and dominate my opponent. In my head. :-)
DeleteInsomnia sucks. One night of insomnia can ruin almost a whole week's worth of writing.
ReplyDeleteOh yeah. It takes a while to get back to the rhythm. Damn that need for 8 hours of sleep.
DeleteI'm a night owl and create my own insomnia, which is ridiculous, but I've been doing it my whole life... strange boy...
ReplyDeleteHope you figure out a better sleeping pattern:)
Best regards,
Mark, (official slacker and IWSG co-host :)
But... Why Mark? Why?
DeleteJust kidding. I know a couple of night owls that do their best writing at night. It's something to envy.
I've battled with insomnia. It can take me hours to fall asleep and then I can't drag myself out of bed in the morning. The worst part is being tired all day.
ReplyDeleteOh... I had my 3rd cup of coffee at 3pm. Right before picking up my son from school. Now off to driving the kids to their soccer practice and piano lesson. I might have one more cup to make it to dinner. :-1
DeleteI know insomnia intimately - it sucks. My sincere commiserations. And like in the last cartoon in your post, the best ideas always come to me while I struggle with my insomnia.
ReplyDeleteI do as well, sometimes, but most times I'm just too tired to think straight. :-1
DeleteYour cartoons are priceless. I feel for you with not being able to sleep at night. Here's hoping you can relax and get some rest.
ReplyDeleteThanks Diane. I'm a huge cartoon / graphic art lover. I had to include cartoons to lighten the mood. They definitely steer the day in a better direction. :-D
DeleteI'm also an insomniac. This past week has been especially horrible, with me unable to sleep about every other night. Time to get in the meditation swing again. That's helped me in the past, but I fell out of the habit. As much as I love writing, it is sometimes part of the problem as I think about story stuff way too much. Time to start pondering fluffy kittens. Kittens... 8)
ReplyDeleteThose comics are great, and so true. Hope you can manage to get some sleep, Tanya.
Thanks Sara. The my-novel-keeps-me-up-at-night is a problem only until I play a little Words With Friends on my phone. Getting to sleep at 11pm isn't the problem -- it's waking at 4am and being unable to get up or go back to sleep. Unfortunately, Words With Friends doesn't have the same effect at that hour. :-1
DeleteWhen I go to bed I start to think of everything I need to do and then I get a panic attack and can't sleep. Insomnia is awful. I used to wake in the middle of the night and write, but now I force myself to lie in bed too, because I have to get some rest to watch my new grandson in the morning....
ReplyDeleteHoping you get some much needed rest!!!!!
Oh, you DEFINITELY need your rest mor than I need mine. Newborns are a handful, and they need your undivided, sharp-as-a-whip attention. Congrats on the new grandson!! :-D
DeleteIt gets even more annoying when you've finally gotten ready for bed and the muse has decided it still has energy.
ReplyDeleteThat crazy muse! They have no sense of time. ;-(
DeleteSorry to hear that. Hope you find a way to beat that insomnia.
ReplyDeleteLove the monster insomnia. I've battled with this before. Problem is, if I mention it to any of my family, then suddenly I have this problem and any time I make the briefest mention of staying up late (it could be two years later) they point out "that is the reason you can't sleep". I wish when this happens, I can just get out of bed and start writing. But that never does happen, does it?
ReplyDeleteThis happened a lot to me as I missed deadline after deadline on my WIP in the summer and fall. I started having nightmares and waking up early with my brain nagging me with the HUGE list of things I had to do. Now that I finally finished, I'm calmer and sleeping much better. (A cold pill can help too...) I hope you get some sleep soon!
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